Dropped WIFE an e-mail when I got back from PT/OT this AM and said "give me a call when you have a chance" .... she called a bit later and said "is there a problem?" and I said "No just checking in"
She has zero interest in what occurred at therapy or how it affects me, or nothing about my accident or injury as if it never occurred.
Maybe I should say "Just don't get it" to "Just don't give a shit!"
Its like I am living this life within a life - the 24/7 affects of 07/14/2008 that is like I got raped but lets not talk about it, with hands covering both ears!
I find this extremely odd yet deal with it. Its not worth pursuing, not worth a battle let alone a war, just some dark secret that I only share with you .... and my doctors who look at me in amazement as if I just jumped over the moon.
Yes FRED/WIFE Europe; Beer Folk and we can add in Grandparents & Parents which is true but it ends there --- its like I live with a non-believer who doesn't give a shit about how I feel as long as it doesn't fuck up their life.
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Graceland in Chicago --- been in there at least 25 times; the grave Eterenal Silence is descript of what is ===========>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
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There is so much more I want to see and do ... I will never stop traveling until I can see and feel all there is possible in my lifetime then I have a great place to fully retire in my fourth floor condo with great roof top deck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wish we could do some of it together but I know that is just a dream :)
Must keep in mind ...
Statements made by both therapist today which is also statement made by Dr ****** my ortho surgeon ... I am lucky and further even though its been a rough long three years I have excellent progress concerning my traumatic injury resulting in a 4mm contusion of my grey matter @C2 --- my OT therapist actually kept patting me as if I was something special/miracle sort of thing ...
Yes LINDA I am broken but I have risen from the dead (medical look at me and say "you've been to Hell and back!" much like the Phoenix rising from the ashes ... I can take nothing for granted, I must work hard every day - I can not hesitate ... So I can live!!!
As.....
As you know you more and more, hear your voice in your video blog, everything is easier to hurdle - not that I did not have life before but now my life is ten times better because of you & I thank my lucky stars that somehow our lines have crossed and paths are being made in so many ways, good ways ... There is so much I would love to share with you, and you alone --- like I know my hands will also have this deficient I know I won't be able to share with you as I desire, but 10% of this goal is well ... Terrific!
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